And if it's any consolation I found someone else and I'm getting married again. My supervisor knows about my depression - he helped me to complete the suspension forms.
I'd also thought I'd never feel that way about anyone again and the fact is I won't: instead what I realized is that every time you fall in love it's different but it can be just as wonderful if not more so. To begin with he was supportive and tried to help, but I feel like for the past 6 months he's just washed his hands of me.
It's difficult to focus on work in any case when I'm so depressed and isolated and broke, and I just don't know what to do.
My supervisor told me about another student who had to look after a parent dying of cancer during his Ph D, then the parent died and he was only absent for a few months - as if to say I'm being ridiculous because losing my fiance is nowhere near as bad as losing a parent, and yet I've been absent for longer than this guy was.
First I extended the Ph D, then I applied for a suspension because it was the only way to get extra time, and I still didn't get on with the work.
I just sat at home in the dark with the curtains shut and cried and saw nobody, I couldn't sleep or eat and I lost 2 stone in weight.
It was very hard, I was a wreck and couldn't really behave like a normal person but going back to work and into my routine was the best thing I could have done.
In spite of everything I got a first and Dean's commendation for my third year work.
You need to get proper help from the medical authorities. I was married at the end of the third year of my undergraduate degree to a man who cheated on me after four months and like you I felt my world had fallen apart.
I didn't believe I could possibly go back and continue the rest of my final year but I forced myself to do it.